I was driving on the highway at night in a Cayenne.

The other day, we took the Cayenne with the whole family to my husband's parents' house for dinner, and on the way home. After driving on the highway for a while, the children in the back seat fell asleep and we were able to have a relaxing conversation as a couple for the first time in a while.

For a long time now, when I drive on the highway at night when there is no traffic, I feel like talking and asking a lot of questions, even things I normally don't talk about.Why is that?(Is it just me or w)

It's been almost two months since I gave birth to my third child. Time seems to have flown by in the blink of an eye in the flurry of activity. We used to have a little time for conversation even on weekday evenings, but now, after the evening, we bathe the children, feed them dinner, and then go to bed.I've got school tomorrow! Come on, come on, come on!I started a life where I would say, "I'm going to sleep with you," and then I would put the baby to bed with him and I would go to bed with him.

Holidays are also a great time for children.A little late at night is OK.Since he says, "I'm not in a hurry to put her to bed," time passes a little more leisurely, but when he and his wife start talking at such times, their daughters invariably interrupt them.

"Well, you know, yesterday, at school, you know..." "Oh, my God! Don't talk to your mother and father!

He would say something like, "I don't know.No, what kind of jealousy (-_-)The couple's conversation is forced to be interrupted even though they think, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. So the highway the other night became a precious time for the couple to talk slowly after a long time.

Those days when Porsche was on fire.

And as we were talking about things, my husband said something like this.

A few years ago, when I was busy with work and couldn't make more free time than I have now.Can't wait to get in my Porsche and go touring! Can't wait for the weekend!I always thought that I would be able to tour the world, and even though I was busy, I still managed to find time to go for a drive. But now that I have more free time, I feel like I don't have the same desire for touring as before.
Now I can afford to go touring whenever I feel like it, and I do go touring, but I don't have the same craving for it as before...
."I will create a structure that allows me to use my time more freely and make the company run without me.I decided, "I'm going to go touring," and I've been trying to get there, and now I'm in a situation where I can go touring at will.When I think I can go anytime, I don't have as strong a desire as I did before.It's kind of ironic, I guess.

And. I see...

."I don't eat sweets or candy!Even though I was dying to eat it as soon as I decided to "No more dieting, I can eat anytime I want.I think, "I'm going to eat a lot of sweets, but I don't have the same cravings as before," but it's just like my pattern of eating sweets.

...or not... (explosion)

I'm the one who said, "You're right... when you're in a situation where you can do it anytime you want, you might not have as much desire as you did before.My husband continued.

Also, recently.I don't have as much burning inside me as I used to.I'm thinking this is not a good situation. I think this situation is not good. It is not good for myself and the company.
When I first started my business.Let's make sure sales are strong.When you work hard and start to get busy with some sales, thinking, "I'm going to be busy.Next time, let's make the system work so that it can run without me.I've been working hard to make it happen.
As for Porsche, I have wanted one ever since I saw it in a magazine when I was in elementary school.I'm sure I'll buy one someday.I decided "I'm going to drive a Porsche," and worked hard at it, and bought my first Porsche, a Boxster, five years ago. Since then, I have driven GT3, air-cooled, the latest 911, and many other models of Porsche. And recently, I've come full circle to the "In the end, I wonder if two cars, a 911 Turbo S Cabriolet and a Cayenne, would be enough.I've been thinking, "I'm not sure I can do this.
So I don't have the same "I can't wait to get this car" feeling as I did before.
I feel uncomfortable in my current situation where I have nothing to burn, and I think I need to move on to the next stage as soon as possible.

And. Usually my husband is always aloof and doesn't talk about these things much, but I didn't know he was thinking about such things....

And I said, "But I also feel that forcing myself to make a goal is something different.If it's not something that comes from the bottom of your body, something that makes your heart tremble, it won't burn in the end.I don't know. But looking at it, it's true that it's been around for a long time.The type that burns more when there are problems and challenges.I feel like I'm not the only one who can do it," I said.

Yes, that's right. I've been around for a long time.I like finding problems and solving them amazingly.I think that's why I've always loved "finding and solving bugs" in programming. That is why I have always loved "finding and solving bugs" in programming.
And that's the problem.The more complicated they are, the more they burn.I was like, "Oh my God, this is the cause! I approach the problem from various angles to solve it, and the moment I realize, "This is the cause of the problem! I enjoy the moment when I realize that this is the cause of the problem.

My husband said.

I, on the other hand, the more complex the problem, the more my mind short-circuits, and the more I burn out and say, "Oh, no!You get hurt, bleeding, and ragged from all the physical contact with the problem, and when you finally get over it, you're shocked when you look to the side and realize that there's a side street, just like any other.I'm the type of person who is like.(Intense W)I think I envy you, though, that you have a personality that enjoys solving problems.

It has been more than 10 years since I have watched my husband by my side, and as I write this, I remember that it was our wedding anniversary.(It's already been two weeks.)...well, let's leave it at that.Husbands are stimulated by being exposed to a world they do not know and new things that bring innovation to the world, and they generate ideas and give shape to themI think he is a type of person and likes to be in such an environment all the time.

Then I said, "Maybe now is the time when you need stimulation or...new input. If this happens, why don't you take a few months and go abroad by yourself? And if you could go and see different countries and come into contact with various values beyond your own, you might find something, right? I said to him.

No, no, no, if I went there during such a corona season, I'd be like, "What are you doing?" w That's hard to do (-_-)

And. Indeed...

My husband has always loved cars themselves and driving cars, which has been his main motivation in his work and life, but now he seems to be looking for a new stage in his life.

As a wife, I am a "Supporting such a husband in a worthwhile wayMy husband is not the type of person who would "go for it," and I can only stand by and watch as he finds his next goal on his own... But I am going my own way, always keeping my eyes on the goal, always imagining the world I want to reach, growing every day with curiosity, achieving one thing at a time, and hoping that I can continue to be a partner who inspires him, even if it is just a millimeter. I hope I can continue to be a partner who can inspire my husband, even if only by a millimeter.

My kids are small now, but I hope we can go on another mid-distance drive like this.